First kiss after my loss

I wasn't sure if I was ready. I didn't even know what I was going to feel. I thought I would cry or stop or think about Jason and only Jason.

I can't believe how much I wanted to keep going, I had to stop myself just cause that wasn't even a date that you call a date. Let alone the first time talking to someone new.

Well I did think of Jason when I got in the moment a few times but not enough to cry but to slow down.

Now it's all over I had a hicky to show for it and nothing more.

I was thinking I would get a chance to see how far I'm ready to go.

But for now that's I far as I know I'm ready. So idk.

So long ... you're loss not mine. I had my best and he's gone before me. All I can do is move on and wait for more to come my way.

I am picky soo don't bother me unless your hot shit!

Ready for the next one.