Wow where am I now?

So, I'm sitting here in a room I'm renting and thinking about how life changes so strangely. I'm finally with my cat and with a job that makes me happy.
I'm not with any guys yet but I'm starting to think of being with another person. I don't know what's gong to happen. I have so many suitors, all asking me if I'm available.
Sometimes I wonder, it's crazy to think that I'm the hottest thing but I look around a realize I might be cause the hot bitch I see could be ugly on the inside? And there really isn't that many hott girls around, and other ones are taken.
I can't believe how life changes.
I misses the path I was on, but moving on is working out so well.
Do I feel guilty or am I just sad I didn't grieve the same or the way I would have if Jason didn't tell me not to?
I miss my best friend, he broke my heart leaving me here, but I'm doing okay.

I think

First kiss after my loss

I wasn't sure if I was ready. I didn't even know what I was going to feel. I thought I would cry or stop or think about Jason and only Jason.

I can't believe how much I wanted to keep going, I had to stop myself just cause that wasn't even a date that you call a date. Let alone the first time talking to someone new.

Well I did think of Jason when I got in the moment a few times but not enough to cry but to slow down.

Now it's all over I had a hicky to show for it and nothing more.

I was thinking I would get a chance to see how far I'm ready to go.

But for now that's I far as I know I'm ready. So idk.

So long ... you're loss not mine. I had my best and he's gone before me. All I can do is move on and wait for more to come my way.

I am picky soo don't bother me unless your hot shit!

Ready for the next one.