My face

One day in 2011 before October, I came home from ... well maybe work I guess I will have to find out but I was Woking at Geo Tek.

Which I Loved that job more than anything I have ever done, ever!!! (Another story)

Back to the story, I came home and Jason had a picture of me drawn up, he said it was completely from memory, and that it was better than any picture of me cause he couldn't find any he liked.

I had been asking if he would ever draw me and; of course I was thinking of being there for it, but this was nice.

I was very happy, and grateful, and excited that he thought me.

I'm glad I have it, I'm just happy there's one thing I wanted done before it was on my list of things I will miss out on. from now on anything I think of that we ment to do and didn't it's almost like a list of regret but it's not something I could of changed cause it didn't happen then and it can't happen now for sure!!!

March 30 2013

The day that has changed everything I do for the rest of my life. Of course you know a day like this is in the future, it's inevitable.  I lost the love of my life we were engaged to be married, we would of already did it but he wanted to have his mother there. 

Jan 10 2013

The day I was asked to marry him.

No time to get a ring in three months so what now?

Realizing life sucks doesn't change, that it has always sucked!

It just marks a moment that you can't get back, plans that were, that can't be.

Regret is a word that works for that but if its not your regret than how can the dead regret anything?

Maybe this entry doesn't make since to you. Maybe I will read it later and I will have a hard time making since myself, but that will be years from now and I need to get this in here now so this is what you get!